MIRAIDORA AZM;

MOVED. MOVED. MOVED.

2010-06-29T14:24:00.001+08:00

MOVED TO TUMBLR. FOLLOW ME.

http://miraidora-sixth.tumblr.com

it think that it is true. So true.

2010-06-28T18:26:00.002+08:00

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Its like. One team, one dream.

2010-06-28T18:18:00.003+08:00

thanks for the PSK, and a lil bit of everything.
And of course, for all the years we had;
especially to Wanibu and Fiona <3

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Oi bitch.

2010-06-28T18:07:00.002+08:00

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Chubi besar.

2010-06-28T18:02:00.002+08:00

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

;Be thankful

2010-06-28T17:58:00.001+08:00

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Ythink you got what it takes?

2010-06-26T12:07:00.004+08:00

1. The purpose of the r'ship for?
2. Can you and your partner give full commitment?
3. What's the long term vision of the r'ship?
4. Must you have a relationship?
5. What's the benefits of the r'ship?
6. Can it last long? If can, till when?
7. Is the R'ship just for intimacy?
8. Are both of you and your partner ready to face the short-comings?

Those questions above you might want to take in consideration, before starting or involve in a r'ship.

So, what dyou say?

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Come, lets bake!

2010-06-26T11:57:00.003+08:00

SHIT. its DRIVING ME MAD.

If its possible, I wanna buy them all and go on a cake-date with my lover. Can, fatt?

But love, they're just too nice to be look at, then to eat!

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

for you, Abdul Fattah

2010-06-26T11:56:00.001+08:00

I miss you, badly.
Hope to meet you soon, love!

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

mira mira nak tidur.

2010-06-22T20:50:00.001+08:00

i. am. friggin. tired. oh, this friday is our sixth! (: with love, MIRADORA Azm.

fighters like us dont quit. we fight.

2010-06-21T11:18:00.003+08:00

hey. sorry for not updating much. im on my n97 now, sorry for the the dull paragraph. its PSK season now, really busy and hectic. first weekend didnt went really good for myself and team. well guys, we know we gave em a good fight and for whatever reasons, we accept downfalls with our heads held high. we gave our best shot and we know that. infact, everyone knows that. we still have one more event to go, its not the end. we make sure we get our golds, and fight till the last gong. not only that, we fight hard. we. go and crack their asses up. lets go guys. one team, one dream. all the waaaaaay. alright? i love you guys, and i'll be with you oll thru,ayte. with love, MIRADORA Azm.

ADDICTED.

2010-06-13T18:25:00.002+08:00

Flying on an airplane, looking at the window, Watching the clouds go by.

kiwak, Mama and Fishball asik bukankan Barney for Baby D. Then I yang addicted. I cant stop singging to this. Shit.

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Woman.

2010-06-13T16:56:00.003+08:00

Behind every man, there is an amazing woman.
- Although woman need not always be behind a man, a woman femininity can certainly propel a man to do more, and become more. Man need a source of feminine energy.

No matter what you look like, if you can cultivate within yourself that rare energy, you can be forever worshipped, as you can make your man feel more like man, and make them happy.

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

"Baby, this is for you."

2010-06-13T12:57:00.005+08:00

Say Hello, to Chocolate.

Yepyep. I hope you love it.

I didnt tell you why I bought the chocs right? Well, Its mainly because of three things;
- I'm sorry because the beginning of the week didnt really went well for both of us.
- Take care because I've gotta check in school, and my competitions on two weekends, and Youre starting your hols, and we can barely meet each other already (well at least for now).
- And lastly, thanks. For everything.

I love you; Fatt.

with love, MIRADORA Azm.

Another one for you;

2010-06-10T11:58:00.000+08:00

And you know why its this picture among all :D

Right now, I feel good. I feel good knowing that you care about me. I feel good knowing that you will give me a chance. I feel good knowing you see me for what I am, not what they say I am. I want you to know that each time I go to bed a picture of your face is stuck in my mind. I love how you smile at me when I said something silly.

I think I'm falling in love with you. It feels good.

Foundd, Tumblr.

2010-06-10T11:24:00.001+08:00

Kay, ini cool. (Y)

My dreammmm hair. But not blonde, but black.
With turqoise highlights. How? (Y)

Sweet? I thought so too.
Tapi, pencil pun will be gone jugak pe.
I mean, you will keep on sharpening the pencil,right? Haa.
Exactly. Sometimes, I wonder. Do guys whom hurt us know exactly how we feel?
Especially when they meant the whole world to us. And all they do is find another one, leaving us behind. But we girls do believe in karma. What goes around, comes around. We have to be strong. And fight. And one day, when they have no one, they will come back to us - because they know, that leaving us, was a mistake. A huge one. Maybe, we do accept them back. But, we dont forget what they had done to us befo - they left us.

Quote of the day;

8. Try to keep your dependence and independence in balance. Tell your partner how much you need them, but don't get to dependent on them and cling to them all the time, as that can make your partner feel trapped. On the flip side of this, don't allow your partner to think you don't need them, by going or doing things without them. Try to keep a happy and healthy balance
between the two.

Toyfriend.

2010-06-10T11:02:00.000+08:00

Foundd, Tumblr.

Hello world.

Current playlist; Toyfriend (David Guetta & Afrojack ft. Wynter Gordon)

Im thinking of changing to tumblr now. Well, aftr looking at all those nice pages of others. But, lecehhh ah -.-

Baby's having school now. Well I was hopping I could eat breakfast with him, since I've got no morning training. But then, he's schooling -.- Holidays next week. Good, while youre having your hols, Im schooling -.- But nevermind, Im gonna have a one month holiday in August (Y)

Im up kinda early today. Im yet to start on my homeworks. Fuggg.

So, Im going to meet Azwan later. We're going training together, since he's at AMK with his girlf now -.-

Okay, and Rabbit. You know Im refering to you. YOU ARE JUST SO CRAZILY IN LOVE. Haa. I see la kan, if on Saturday Im available. I am, but homeworks -.- Sebok ah.

Oh yeah, talking about Saturday, Baby's going off to Ubin till Tuesday. -.-' School starts, training continues, Competition season. Maybe honey, we take a break from here?

And by the way Lili Muslihah, if youre reading this, here's a lil note for you;
I MISS YOU BIG TIME BABYGIRL

Mira. Type.

2010-06-10T01:24:00.001+08:00

Mira. Ngantok.
Mira. Just touched her homework.
Mira. Belom start on her homework.
Mira. Plan to start on Geog's project dulu.
Mira. Worry about the time left to finish all her homework.
Mira. Body aching.
Mira. Nak massage.
Mira. Lapaar.
Mira. Malas nak pack bag.
Mira. Malas nak check in sekolah on Sunday Night.
Mira. Taknak pergi sekolah pun.
Mira. Worry about results pun.
Mira. Tau confirm she screw all her papers.
Mira. Concern about her preparations for PSK.
Mira. Worry if the competition will clash with homework.
Mira. Rindu Fatt.
Mira. Nak tido.
Mira. Ada Geog assignment kene buat sekarang.

Mira. Go off now.
Mira. Cakap bye kat korang semue.

HELLO AFIQAH SAM (Y)

2010-06-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

HELLO YOU PRETTYHEAD.

K, i taktau youve been reading my blog la kan. Haaaaa. Anyway, nice chatting with you man. Haha. I nak choose gambar on your FB, susah. Banyak lawa nak mampos, dont know which one to choose. Im sorry la kan, banyak punya busy, cannot teman you go shopping. We'll go out some other time bile kita dua free okay, pretty? :D

Eh, i thought youre on HIS side sia. Skali tak. BAIK AH LU GIRL *high 5!*

So yes, new friend founddd. Lawa right? Shes one year below me.

HELLO AFIQAH SAM.

Formspring.Me

2010-06-09T01:16:00.000+08:00

"Hey girl , What 's up with you and boyfriend ? It 's all over FB, and your blog . You alright ? D;"

"Oh. That. Haaa. Err. Well, ups and downs in a relationship. Happens all the time, right? I have to say Im okay - I have to convince myself that I am. Things hadnt changed to any better for the time being. But, I'll be fine. I love him, and. I dont know how much longer I can hold on to this feeling and situation I'm in now. I hope things will go back to normal, change for the better as soon as possible. I cant afford to cry myself to sleep everynight any longer. And thanks, for asking dear. I didnt know people are actually reading up my blog. Haa. Take care, alright? Nights! (:"

Formspring.
http://formspring.me/miraidora

Where are you? Where have you been?

2010-06-08T23:32:00.000+08:00

I think that the most difficult person to understand, is Yourself.

That's exactly what I told my heart.

I wanna hold your hand.
I want to smell you, I want you to hold me and tell me Im perfect just the way I am. I try to start picking up your hobbies as mine, just in the hopes that it will make me understand you better. I want to know everything.

And love, means nothing back. Love means holding you, and being afraid because I can lose you at any moment,but the fear is what that keeps you hanging on.

So, is love fear? I dont think so. What I love about you is that Youre my bestfriend. I tell you stuffs which majority, not most people know.

Now, whenever I look at our picture, everytime, It tears me up. I wonder, how I can get things back to place, sort things out. What went wrong, which rules did I break?

Where are you now, when nothing's going right?
Where are you now, when I needed you the most?

My heart is breaking. I cant sleep at all. Trying to get through this, but I dont know how to get myself through this. I know that I only got myself to blame. But that doesnt help to ease the pain.

I still need you beside me.

"It seems when you want someone, they dont want you. And when someone wants you, you dont want them. And when you both want each other, something has to come around and mess it up."

I cry myself to sleep - thinking when will this last. Whenever, by any chance I was left alone, I would stare at my phone, hopping that I'll get a text from you. I think, I got myself way too attached to you now already. Please, I need to hear something from you. I love you dear. Really, I do. Im sorry.

Sucks much. I can advice my girlfriends, my hunkies and all. But sadly, when it comes to me - even for the simplest things of all, I cant advice myself.

Im. Sorry.

2010-06-08T01:20:00.000+08:00

Hey you chubi besar.
Im sorry, alright. Really. I guess youre sleeping now, thats why you didnt reply my text.
I love you;
& Im sorry once again.
Goodnight lova♥

Thanks Meimei.

2010-06-07T23:27:00.001+08:00

This really made my day. Im sorry meimei, Uploading this without you knowing till you've read my blog. Its not paisey-ness. Its adorable. Really.

*Ouch

2010-06-07T22:41:00.000+08:00

I Miss......Smiling

I'm sorry. I just. I couldnt talk, at all.

You left me speechless.

I dont know how to react to that, I swear, I dont know. But, what happen afterwards really left me hurt.

When you let go of my hands. When you didnt look at me in the eye before you left. When you didnt say anything.

I dont know how to describe the feeling, and the thought Im facing now. Im hurt. For sure.

I can barely smile now. I wanna talk things out. But, talk what out?

time check, 11.56pm.

I didnt know how to react to that, love. Should I comfort you? but what if you tend to continue, and think that I think its alright? Should I get mad at you? But then, I understand that people dont change overnight. Im sorry,again.

I cant go on with us, being like this. You know, I have a fragile heart. You know my weakness. Please. You tell me, what should I do to get things back to place. But for whatever reasons, never take 'leaving' as an answer. I know, I remembered, you told me you'll leave. Because it'll eventually hurt me further. But, no. Its gonna hurt me more if you leave. Please,

Im sorry, really.

Its better to keep him than for him to keep his promise.

Lastly, Im sorry. For everything.

Satu hari bersama si dia.

2010-06-06T22:26:00.000+08:00

Hello world.

Not much pictures. But had fun, as usual. Everyday is special with you.

Thanks Abdul Fattah.

the one for suhaila. (Y)

2010-06-04T01:30:00.001+08:00

this one's for you, Nurul Suhaila a.k.a Meimei.

Dont be afraid to let go.

Dont admit that youre too weak to let go.

Of course, it hurts. It hurts to see someone you love happy with someone else. I've been there,too. It didnt last - You got too close, he took off, taking your heart with him. But remember, by remembering back the past, get sad over those pictures, makes you a better person, dear? No, it doesnt.

Of course, if the truth was told instead of a lie, the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much. But things had happen, and there's nothing much you can do about it.

Look. Honey, be strong.

Think. Youre here, sad, writing posts and all about him, hoping that he would realise his flaws and all. And him? He is acting like as tho nothing had happen, because he's with another person, another companion. So, you tell me. Is it worth it for you to cry over him? To get sad over him?

Meimei, Youre a friggin strong girl. Dont let one element pull you down. Thats not the way. Instead, you get back up. You show him that youre so much better without him. You show him that youre stronger without him.

And you show him, that you friggin believe in karma. (Y)

To let go does not mean to stop caring,

it means you cant do it for anyone else.

To let go is not to deny,

but to accept.

To let go is to fear less and love more.

Like what I told Shaila, "Remember, time is to love is short."

Im here if you need me. I know what its like to be in your shoes. Been there, done that. I know.words seems so easy. but its all about the determination, to get over.

Come on, Suhaila. He is not worth it. He is not worth your tears. He is not worth your time. He doesnt deserve you, and thats for sure.

He'll regret. Go, let him explore love all he wants. But one day, when karma speaks for itself, he'll come back. He'll come crawling. He'll come begging for you love. He'll regret.

Remember, what I always tell you to note to yourself,

"He lost something amazing, He lost you. You get back up, be yourself, be strong."

Love you mei. Dont be a dysfunctional bitch like her. (Y)

Move On. Dont hold On.

2010-06-03T23:30:00.001+08:00

It felt like you were hiding something,

but I didnt push it, I didnt complained or say nothing.

I tried acted like I didnt see it,

cause deep down I knew I didnt want to believe it.

And there it was, it was you and her.

I thought it was you and I.
Now all I got to say is Why?

After all the times that we tried,

I find out that we were living a lie.

Specially for you; Nurul Suhaila

My body aches, and filled with bruises.

2010-06-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

yes, bruises. I am not abused, but it is just normal. Its the nature of my sport.

Good day, Earthlings.
Tomo's the day, the FRYYYDAAAAYYYY. Going to have dinner with DanYew and KakMoon (Y) But meeting love first. (Y)

But first of all,
Morning, training. And then swimmingminggg. And then meet love. And then meet DanYew&KakMoon. And then back home. Thank god tomo's friday. Been really tired with trainings everyday, and I still havent touched my homework yet. FML.

Alright, next post is going to be about my darling - Nurul Suhaila. Its for you okay, read it, munchkinnnnnn.

Dear readers.

2010-06-02T00:45:00.001+08:00

To all my babies who find moving on or letting go is hard,

Stop thinking that,

"Im tired of waiting for you. Im sick of falling for your words. I want to leave, but something about you keeps pulling me back in."

Do yourself and your heart a favour ; turn around and leave. It may not be what you want, but this shit is not what you deserve. You deserve better. Go.

You should start thinking that,

"Did yknow that you used to mean a lot to me? Well yeah, thats true. Now, youre just another face in the crowd."

oi chubi, i love you.

2010-06-01T22:47:00.002+08:00

hello. finally, im back on lappy and not my n97.

so, here's a lil something for that skinnyfaggot who loved me and who is loved, deeply and truely by me.

Hello Abdul Fattah.

one - we deserve better. sayang, thanks. for everything. you changed my life. you made it better, full of joy. Im not going to leave you - again. Im not, and I want you to remember that. I know its hard for you to accept that Im back again, but please. I know. People have been telling me to think carefully of what Im doing and.. The point is that, I already found someone who really and tuely loves me for the way I am. So. Im going to treasure and appreciate your love before I'll come begging and finding for love. It always better to love those who loves me, true?

Sayang, I wont leave, because Im not finished yet. Im not finished loving you.

two - im sorry. im sorry i left you before. now that I know you fatt, the thought of.. leaving. just the thought if leaving hurts me bad. i love you, too, fatt.

three - of course. of course i hugged you like theres no tomorrow. of course I let you hold me till the very last. Of course I love you truely. Of course I came back strong, not fearing for the worse, but for the better.

four - i feel good too, when i know you feel good whenever you know that i love you. Its gonna be hard for me if you were to walk away from my life now. So please, fatt. Dont pull yourself out from me. Dont give up on me, please. Hey, I left you before. And she left you before. You chose me, instead of her. I'll be a one big fat ass bitch if i Leave you again, right? Please honey, have some faith. I love you, and thats all that matters. When we hold hands or hug, it seems like all problems just fade away and we're closer to each other.

five - we click. of course. like no other. like. no. friggin. other.

six - waiting/waited. Grabbed your hands tight and whisper, "i love you too." Our lips met, and its the sweetest lips ever. I have yet to grant your last wish. Yet.

seven - love. Now, when I think about love, all I can think about is you. I have that thing that everybody else wanted, I wont take it for granted. I have. You.

eight - no one else can share your love for me. Nor does anyone else gets my love, like you do. You got that right, honey. Absoloutely.

nine - "if i died and went somewhere far, I'd write your name on every star. So everyone could look up & see, that you meant the whole world to me."

Nine. Nine things about us. I bet there's more.
Nine, your favourite number, aint it? :D

Hey faggot.

Hey Abdul Fattah,thanks. For everything.

n97 chubi besar ah. ~~6th months!

2010-05-25T18:36:00.000+08:00

CHECK IT OUTTTT. 6TH MONTHS, HOW AWESOME. OKAY, I TK TAU WHATS WITH MY N97, SATU CHUBI BESAR, ALL CAPS AND CANT ENTER. BUT TKPE. OKAY. FATT,I LOVE YOU. K BYE.

All i ever wanted.

2010-05-23T11:41:00.000+08:00

thanks. for everything.

i would love to write a longer post, but not now. Im hungry ):

And. really. Thanks mama. For understanding. Everything seems good and right now. Alhamdullilah.

andd one more. i nak this dress from f21! 45 bucks. lawaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

; Lets.

2010-05-23T11:20:00.001+08:00

"You have that thing everybody else wants. You can take it for granted. If you didnt, if you couldnt be with the person you love, I guarantee that hearing him promise to love you no matter what, it would be pretty much all you could think about."

Lets appreciate love. Together.
Lets not take it for granted.
Lets cherish.
Lets treasure.
Everything.
Love.

A lil bit of heaven. And a lil bit of hell.

2010-05-09T11:42:00.001+08:00

"Firstly, ask yourself, Is it really worth it to be involved with him?"

"It is worth it for me, i admit. But is it worth it for him? I still think that he doesnt deserve me because he deserve someone better."

"If its worth it for you then ry to stick to him. Youve got to trust him that his feelings are true. Have you ever try asking him wether it was worth it for him? Have faith youre doing something right."

"Yknow. It feels good when you know youre actually someone's will to live and live life to the fullest. Wait. And the courage and motivation to go on. But at times, it can be the element that pulls you down."

"Yeah I understand. I happen to be at both ends of the sticks before. Yknow what. Go and sleep and enough of crying. Youre a strong girl."

Have you ever?

2010-05-09T10:06:00.001+08:00

Have you ever feel like something's bothering you bad the whole day and you cant get over it but you dont know what it is and it makes you feel troubled?

Have you ever hope for you to be someone's pillar and strength? But when your wish came true, you hope that you never wished for that?

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time comin
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship

One of the things guys are thinking but will never ever tell you is;

"Im really really scared if Youre gonna break my heart one day."

I thought I would wake you up, but you moved on.

2010-04-28T14:35:00.001+08:00

Hello readers. A new issue.

I thought It'd wake his idea up that he'll do something to show that he loves me. He hasnt really shown alot. We broke up quite long ago already, but he seem not to bother. But just sweet-talk me. But I did tell him that Its not because I dont love him anymore.
- Geee

Aww honey. Well, its clear that He moved on now already. So, you gotta move on. I know its hard, but youve gotta. Youve gotta. Holding on doesnt make anything go any better, well especially in your case. You gotta be strong. And when you love someone, let them go. Let them be happier. Its okay, he will come back if he's yours. If he doesnt, he wont be.

Quote of the day;

Dont get discourages when the things that you want dont turn out to be your way.

2010-04-28T00:52:00.001+08:00

Good morning love.

And my baby got so high already.

Time check: 12.57am

Currently: Taking a break from revising Biology&Chemistry test tomorrow.

AKU SCREAM, AKU LAPAR, AKU NGANTOK

2010-04-27T23:03:00.000+08:00

I love you for giving your heart to me

and trusting me with your pride.

I love you for wanting me

and needing me by your side.

I love you for the emotions

I never knew I had.

I love you for making me

smile whenever Im sad.

I love you for your thoughts of me

where Im always in your mind

and how you make me feel.

I love you because I am who I am when Im with you and no one has ever done that.

On the other hand,You take care and rest well okay chubi. 3 days MC, and you wanna go school. Insane child. I know its kinda and damn bored over at home, but its the time for you to rest la kan. Selalu complain penat and tk ckp goodnight. Ni got the chance, tk tau pakai. chubi kn. I know la, get to go school tomo to meet that Pink-Bag girl. Dont forget to bring her kinderbuenos and make her day ehhh. Keep on trying, faggot. Whatever ah. Sick shit.

HAHA.

Also, i think im sleeping late late tonight. Maths homework, Bio test and Chem text tomo, and I havent start revisinggggggggggg. Tomo morning got trg. Wah hebat hebat pahhh. ChubiNathan ahh.

;Sayunuri

2010-04-27T18:49:00.001+08:00

Honey, you tk payah rembat die ke ape la kan. Ape la you ni. -.- TAPI.

I hope you've got the courage to confront him face to face ah. But first, you have to find out whats happening. I know its not a pain killer to be nice again to him, but just try, again. Ask him nicely what you need to know and all. And then kalau his replies tetap mcm chubi, you pikir baikbaik what should be your next move then. I know you know what you should do. Tapi what matters is that, You strong ke tk to make that move.

Kalau die chubi, die answer balik you and all, You rebutt balik about how he have been treating you all this while. You cakap that youre tired of bottling everything to yourself and whatsmore, the way he react to everything macam nothing.

You nye case dah bukan because he deserve better seh. But because YOU do. I bet. Duh.

You just wait for monday je la okay babygirl. In the meantime, stay strong.

Quote of the day;

Love is bitter. But it happens everytime, so people get used to it. Love is a game. When you lose, you lose half of yourself.

; SHOT.

2010-04-27T00:22:00.001+08:00

I know I hadnt say this to you for a very very very very very long time, chubi lova. But.
I miss you.

;Die dedicate this song untok aku ah.

2010-04-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

I see you beside me. Its only a dream, A vision of what we used to be. The laughter, the sorrow. Pictures in time fades to sorrow.

How could I ever let you go. Is it too late to let you know.

I tried to run from your side. But each place I hide, it only reminds me of you. When I turn out all the lights, Even the night, It only reminds me of you.

So come back to me. Im down on my knees.

Mymp - only reminds me of you

Sweeeeeeeeeeeet. Thanks chubai. Really.

I dont know if youre been reading my blog or not, but I hope you know that Im refering to YOU la kan. And youre sucha meannie, kene-kan me the whole night tonight, ah. ChubiChubi betol. Well, Im looking forward for Sunday and Monday (: Monday, Jellybean will bring her DSLR, and we can camwhoreeeee la kan.

;Readers, Pictures will be up as soon as its taken and uploaded. If its not here, it should be on FB. (:

Youre my chubai. Im your chubi.

;And I want you to know.

2010-04-26T18:32:00.001+08:00

I just hope that I get to be the one who will get you going.

I love talking to you, I love who I am when Im with you. Because I am myself when Im with you. I try to be the best you ever had, but apparently there are others whom you would prefer. I made a mistake before, and Ive learnt. Im sorry

Ive made the wrong decision, to leave and love all the wrong guy. Things never come easy for me, and It has always been so hard. Whatsmore, somehow I bet, Its gonna hurt me if youre going to be with someone else in the near future and not me. I admit, I left you. I know, it must have been hard for you. I know, you needed me at that very point of time. I didnt realise how much It hurts until I knew that Youve moved on.

But how come talking about other girls made me jealous?

But hey lover. I didnt leave you for any other guy. I didnt know what I wanted and. Fuck life.

I want to know what Love is. And I bet, you can show me. Again.

I. want. to. start. over.

Yes, we are. You can do that. I can too. But will things be the way it was last time? When there's only me and you?

Readers, When you told someone your deepest secret nobody has ever knew, who is He to you?

That night I lied on my bed and cried. Cried because I realised that I had the perfect guy in my life. Not because I deserve better. But because you do.

but, that doesnt mean that I dont love you.

and its going to hurt me to see you with another girl in near future and not me.

xoxo

;Its for my dearest.

2010-04-26T16:05:00.001+08:00

Hey honey. This one's for you.

He is not treating you right. NO girls deserved to be treated like that. And tell me, if he can do it to other girls, he can also do it to you. Its only the second month and he's already acting up all chubi already. Im not asking you to leave him, but its all up to you. I know, youre holding on to it right now but honey, you always do. And you always give in in this relationship which I think shouldnt be the way ah.

His friend asked him if youre his new 'toy' infront of you. Maybe its because of his past which you dont know, and you have yet to find out. I know, you assume that he changed.

But if you gave him your last $10 for the week to him and he didnt show any signs of being grateful to have someone like you, why dyou still bother to hold on to it?

Take your time. Or not. Decide whats good for you. And whats not.

Readers, tell me. Its a one sided love,aint it?

Toldchu, Girls should never start and get serious with things too fast and early because she will only end up hurting herself.

Please, been there, done that.

for you Sayunuri

Eh aku strong ah. Stronger without kau ah.

2010-04-25T12:04:00.000+08:00

Chubi really opened up my eyes and made me think about everything deeper. Well, what he told was me was exactly what I needed to hear. And chubi. Thanks alot for everything and everyday. I know, Ive texted you already - the 6 pages long msg, but there's another one here for you.

You made my Saturday, you made my day. I really need that badly and for the first time, You live me up within one day. HAHA. But again, had fun with you, walking from Dhoby Ghaut to Bugis. I know Ive been living under the shell to long, but hear this; "If its me and my bestf, she'll get lost first and she'll depend on me for directions." HAHA. So, that means Im not THAT blur la kan. Haha. The rainbow thing thing was nice. And the chocolate shake with pearls helped through the walk. Wait. Im not done yet. And the Brownies and Icecream was the HIGHLIGHT of the day, i swear. And I must say that I am honoured that you brought me to your workplace, introduced me to your friends, showed me around and all. And and Im the first girl you brought over. Definitely, I feel special. (Y)

When you told me you never ever thought of deleting me in your life, I tear. I know I've made a mistake to leave you before and hurt you bad. I know I'm Wrong. Eventhough you've forgive me already, I will still remember that I was wrong.

You told me you fall for me once, And you will always be.
You told me no one deserve to be treated badly.
You told me it hurts you to me getting hurt.
You told me that you're glad to know someone like me.

And you told me you did everything because you want to be there for me.

Its Saturday, I met brownies with icecream. Its Saturday, you cheered me up. Its Saturday, I finally knew how to walk from Dhoby to Bugis. Its Saturday, I finally knew that I've been living under the shell for so long. Its Saturday, You made my day. Its because Its Saturday, I love Saturday.

On the other hand, To you who broke me heart badly.

youre sucha jerk and I hate guys like you. Whatsmore, you dont worth my time and Guys like you are just so typical. Who cares if you read this post or not, but if you, I want you to know that You are missing the good things in life for leaving me. You are missing the good things in life because you lost someone whose willing to guide you through. Stop thinking that youre a guy and you can use and do anything to any girl. And stop telling your friends that Im crazy over you and You dont like me and Yout think I'm annoying and all. Please. One thing you dont know about me is that;

Eventhough Im fifteen, I know how guys like you treat a girl. Please.
And perhaps, the reason you gave me is so typical. It is JUST a reason and easy to say, to bottom line is that you never liked me before and you just want to play around with the girl's heart. But, somehow I think youre a coward. Why dont you just tell me off straight to the point? Why dyou have to twist everything? It must have been difficult to pretend, aint it?

We may be friends in the future, but my thought of you never changes - Youre the guy that left me over some stupid reason, Youre the guy that shattered me to pieces, Youre the guy who deleted my post on your wall, Youre the guy who have used me, Youre the guy who had wasted my time, Youre the guy who cheated my feelings, Youre the typical guy whom I can meet anywhere. And. Youre the guy whom I thought was different but wasnt and I.

I dont deserve you. I deserve someone who loves me, and not you. I deserve somene else, I dont deserve you.

Guess what fucker;You lost something amazing. You lost me.

Note to All my people.

2010-04-23T12:44:00.001+08:00

Nanti bile I sampai rumah, i upload dekat my private blog lagu lagu yang Girlfs I ngn I nyayi okay. Jangan cakap tk sedap ah, kite memang tk boleh nyayi. Effort mesti ada(:

Be strong.

A simple note. A bold meaning.

This one goes out to all the people who have been broken but still strong enough to let go.
For all the people who have hurt so badly that they felt they could never love again, but kept their heads up.
For the people that wish loneliness wasnt a part of them, but put up with it anyhow.
For the people who wake up in the morning with no missed calls and text messages but smiled anyway.
For the people that pick up the phone so tempted to call, but keep their dignity intact instead.
For the people that never wanted to let go, but had to.
For the people that still believe in love even after all of the hurt their heart endured.
For the people that needs inspiration.

When the world is falling apart. When there's no light to break up the dark. When the world has no one.

2010-04-22T23:33:00.001+08:00

"What are you thinking about?"
"You."
"Me? What about me?"
"Well, Im trying to figure out where is this going."
"Oh. Well. That. I dont know."
"I know who I am in love with, but for now I dont have the energy to be in a relationship."
"Okay. I understand. But you know I love you and we had our times together and..."
"Well, isnt that enough?"
"I dont know."

He never called, he never texted. For a long time, I was wreck.

But that doesnt mean that I dont miss him.

Chubi, i need you now. And i mean it.

Chubi Chickies

2010-04-22T14:17:00.000+08:00

Heyya readers. Help to vote for me by 'like-ing' the picture. Here's the link;

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Yesterday night was awesome. Thanks alot to FATTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

First, after SST webcam-ed with Jeff and Daniel.

Then with Izhwan.

Oh yeah, Bestf. Good luck for your race later okay. I miss you la love. I know, one school. But hadnt talk to you for quite sometime. Vithya couldnt make it this Saturday. Hmm. Im thinking of going library, study. You wanna tag? I doubt so. HAHA (:

Apart from that..
Faaaaaaaaaaaaatttttttttttt;
Eh gemok. THANKS for making my day semalam la kan. After so long tk bebual, semalam baru gile gile. Hyper maot. HAHA. I then realised that You were the one who were like telling me everything about your school and lifes and updates. Macam banyak bende sangat gitu kan you nk bebual. HAHAH. Banyak chicks pat ITE pe? HAHA. Eh, you better be honoured and comment on this post okay. And guess what. I cant wait for you to dapat you driving liscence, and caaaaar. So You can send me to school la kan! Tak payah susah susah naik MRT, tunggu bus. HAHAHA (:

Quote of the day,

"Well, you dont descriminate. Im the 15 year old you fell in love with Last February."

You ended what you started. You ended what we had. You ended me.

-Miraidora

2010-04-20T22:31:00.000+08:00

i thought you wouldnt text. but then you did.
one thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind.

im confused.
should i leave you? or not?

You?
You just dont want to talk about it, dont you. Are you leaving Us behind? I admit. Its only a short period of time. But.

Its unfair. I reserved my love for the next one to come. The next one whom I think would deserve. I chose you. But, Ive made the wrong choice. A fucking wrong choice. I let you have and I gave all I got to keep on loving and keep our love going on but. Its all. A. Plenty. Waste. Of. Time.

Why does it always have to be this way? When I thought he is the perfect one, He left me?

Apart from that, I would like to say. Thanks FATT. For making my day. I just feel like talking to you and let all my thoughts out. Seriously. We should Starbucks one day. Hahaha. Okay, Freda? (:

And also my gorgeous Roomies. And. Happy Birthday Liana. I knw you had a blast one, sweety. (Y)

;Whose gonna walk me back to school on Sundays now?
(i)i miss you,love(/i)

i feel all alone, when youre not with me.

2010-04-20T10:05:00.001+08:00

i feel like thrash. i know, for sure you've read the text i've sent you yesterday night. yes. think of it. i really hope the decision that youve made is really what you want. well,at least i thought i was your pillar and strength - like what you were to me. go and take your time. slowly. easily. * apart from that, i hate what im feeling now. you left me so wounded. you told me i woudnt understand. i know how youre feeling, i know because i've been thru. its like. you really dont know what you want, until you get yoself in a fucked up situation. but baby, why does it have to be now? you told me not to be upset. you told me you dont want to break my heart. oh honey, you already did. it sucks to know that i found you, it sucks to be in the situation we are in now. but wait. yeah,youre right. i dont understand you - how come the last time we met everything was perfectly fine, and then the Next day youre telling me all the bullshit stuffs?

;so tonight, im going to find a way to make it without you.

2010-04-20T10:00:00.001+08:00

even if youre a million miles away, i can still feel you.

; I should have known that Youre gonna break my heart.

2010-04-19T21:55:00.001+08:00

I was good, a few seconds ago. I swear.

I wouldnt deny that You were always there to keep me smiling and move on everyday.

I didnt expect anything like this to happen to us. I swear, I didnt see that coming. I dont know what you want exactly. Now, you kept me thinking - that feeling just came overnight, or it has been going on for days? If it has been, you should have told me earlier.

I couldnt believe myself that I fall for someone like you. You. But, you made me feel so comfortable. I was myself whenever Im with you.

When was the last time I really fall for a guy? Tell me. All I did, was mingle around. And so I met you and I decided to stick to you. But then, You were the one who broke my heart. How cliche is that?

I dont know how i should feel now, i swear to god. Should I be sad because this might be the end of us? Which I already think it is? Or. should i just stay calm, and relax. Because youre not worth it.

But. Why now? Youre telling me all the crappy stuffs after all that we've been through. Ive expected alot from you and. I just hate the feeling Im feeling now. What the fuck.

I still cant believe how much I depended on you on stuffs and most importantly, Your Love.
I guess that for us being friends now just doesnt seem right. I mean, is this what you really want long ago? I know, i told a couple of my friends that We wouldnt last. But i wasnt expecting it to be this 'long'.

Im still curious about whats keeping you so stressed out. Or is it just because you needa break. I dont know.

If you give me a chance, I would start it all over again. All over. But make sure you stick to your decision. And. Ergh. Fuck it.

Remember, I told you before that;
For it was not into my ears that you whispered. But into my heart.
Its not my lips that you kissed. But my soul.

just remembered. My life was always so suckish and never been right. Wait. It still is.
It sucks to know that Im tearing now. Because of you.

"I remembered what you wore on our first date. Maybe its true,that i cant live without you. And maybe its true, and now im thinking that two is better than one."

When i grip your arms tight, this song will then just appear in my head. Thats when you hear me humming the song,love.

macam finally gitu kan.

2010-04-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

YES AA. BLOGGING THRU N97 NOW. TAPI MCM CHUBI ALL CAPS LOCK. KEH. JAP. I TRY ANOTHER POST.

; my only subject was him

2010-04-19T17:33:00.001+08:00

Well. Why dont they let me love you?

I wish she would understand. I wish she could be the one giving me advices and all. I wish. But I guess that it's not going to happen. Dad seems cool, but I hadnt tried talking to him about this. Never. But I know, he would understand me better. I dont know how to put words together to make sure I'll get what I want. I guess all she'll say is, "Study comes first. Silat. Youre too young. It'll only distracts you."

I hate it. Yes, Im young, But I'ma teenager now. I want freedom. Well, when i said Freedom you'll know what I mean by that. Im growing. And, you always make it sounds like as if Im still a small lil kid. Dont you know how bad I want you to be more understanding towards me?

Love. Well. I bet you didnt know how much He gave me life. Im not saying that You didnt play your part. You did. But, obviously there's something wrong when I tend to depend on the other person and not you, right?

Wait. Im not done yet.

He made me smile all along - while Im in school and even at home. I like the feeling whenever I know that he is there for/with me. And i guess, you've fallen in love too when youre teenagers right?

You just cant stop nagging to me about all these matters. You always want to know who Im out with. You always ask everything. Yes love, You did your part. Youre caring towards me. You wanna know who are my friends. Of course you wouldnt want me to mix around with bad companies. Yes, I know, Only if youre understanding.

Major miscommunication. I seldom talk to you when Im at home. If we talk, its all about other family stuffs, and most of the times crazy stuffs. But. Whenever I have problems regarding this, I wouldnt be able to open and share it to you. I wouldnt be able to ask you advice and seek help. I always have to rely on friends who knew exactly what happened and whats going on all along. But as a matter of fact, I want you to know all about that. I want you to be the one by my side. But. You dont understand.

I hope that one day you get to read this. I hope I get to print this for you. I hope at least Dad gets to read it.

; Again. I dont know how to put it to words to tell you. Im scared.

For sure. My life would be so much brighter if you would understand, Because. You know me best.

wait.

2010-04-19T17:22:00.000+08:00

i swear to god. i dont know who I should trust right now.

Anyone?

Wait. No one.

I wish you know that.

2010-04-18T23:54:00.001+08:00

I want freedom. I need your understanding. I know you love me. But. I need you to be open.

It hurts to see everyone being so close to theirs. Sharing their relationship life. And all other dirty little secret. Their diary is their mom. Mine?

I wish You would understand. I dont know how to tell you.

; Malam malam, kalau bawak laptop pergi sekolah.

2010-04-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

" Well Sha. Love doesnt come overnight."
"True. But. Overnight tk overnight. Kau nye laptop overnight pun tk on on."

- Shazira Sharpain Superman Sadface Shazaay Nimble Olalala.

(Note that this long name only refers to ONE person.)

HAHAHAHA.

; Oh god. Im falling sick already. And. Im missing you already. MSS (:

; Geography project. Pening kepale.

2010-04-15T11:06:00.000+08:00

Geog project is a pain in the ass. Doing on Singapore's development - Education. I think i'll be going over to Library again to study this Sunday and maybe finish up on the project, and then let Bevo and Seaweed to edit a lil here and there.

Commonwealth's Essay is due tomorrow, 1400 words. -.- Maths Quiz is tomorrow, Social studies module test is tomorrow. Vo'defuck. I guess tonight i'll have to sleep a lil late. shit.

Im missing my Million Dollar Mutton badly. Its been days since i last texted her and went out with her. i wonder when is our Chaper four outing.

I know, i hadnt update my blog for so long. been busy with everything. school, training, stuffs. and stuffs.

this saturday will be rather hectic. morning icebath with team, then off to auntylina's house for cousintwinny's birthday party. and also. after that i guess i'll straight go off to library and be back home late. Possible? I hope so.

;Gotta go now. gotta continue on geog's essay. and powerpoint presentation. and search for education's flowchart. shucks.

Much love,
MIRAIDORA AZM.
anything, comment. please be nice.

princess' birthday.

2010-04-06T20:09:00.000+08:00

Nothing special today. At least had fun With the team During Afternoon training.

Wah, Hebat. Wahwah, HebatHebat.

2010-03-19T17:00:00.000+08:00

JYEAH. She is back from JB. Yknow guys, It feels so good to be as a team with the Grasio family - again. The last time was like, what. 2007? Yeah, it feels so good.

Competition was great. At first, everything was normal. Until Singapore swept all the Seni GOLD Medals, and won majority of the matches. Slowly, the WHOLE Plaza Angsana was against us. The jeers, and all. It was horrible. But, Thank G-O-D, kite rilek.

"Never bring ourselves to their level."

To summarise things up, Im proud to say that Grasio have won;

21 GOLDS, 2 SILVERS & 7 BRONZES.

One for all, all for one, Grasio Number One.

; Note

2010-03-13T15:37:00.000+08:00

To me, True love is the sweetest thing in life. Thats why we're all either in love, Or looking for love. Sometimes, you have to work for it - especially when life gets in the way - but I believe that, deep love is worth fighting for.

; i hope you know that its you im talking about

2010-03-13T15:10:00.000+08:00

Yeah. Finally i started blogging again.

2010-03-06T20:24:00.000+08:00

Well, for public blog, i guess my post today is going to be damn short. Yeah, changed layout. Back to basics. Better, simpler.

Anyway. Days wasnt so great, with trainings and school and problems. Too tired to even do anything. Didnt do well for Module One, especially Conbined Science, Social Studies and Maths. I'm already like so tired today, but still I have tons of homeworks undone. and WTF, its a Saturday and Im at home, rotting. Let me tell you what I have on my list now, aye;

Biology - Workbook

HML Kefahaman

Social Studies - Bobby Sand's

English Passionata

Maths

Geog - WKSHT & Essay.

Other than that, I seriously need a new wardrobe. Shopped last Saturday with Ms Hotness And Co., but still not enough stuffs.

Oh yeah, i got in to the next round for the Sports Reality show stuff. Its like the Sports @SG TV show. Get to host for 8 episodes, and 2 episodes on YOG. Tomorrow is the last audition, after that the final 2 will get selected. And peeps. Wish me luck!

And not forgetting, Ive got selections too, tomorrow. For Johor competition, Grasio. Wish me luck for this too, aye!

And to you, whom I hadnt text for so long. : First thing, I hope you know who the f*ck you are. Okay, Ive read your latest status, with the M.Fcking CAPITAL LETTERS. Please, I am not with anyone else, or even with ANYONE. Please get your facts right. Seriously. My other previous status were not meant for anyone, as theyre just Phrases and Quotes. Youre a nice guy, Youre nice to me. But, WTF, i dont mind not having you in any part of my life since you want to erase me PERMANANTLY. I dont give a fcuk. And guess what, Its your lost. Not mine. Better make it clear. C.H.U.B.I. Now, if youre reading this, i bet you know that Im really refering to YOU.

I'm sorry for being harsh, peeps. But sometimes, people just.. Hah.

But still, anyway..

Purple Leather Jacket, Tank top, Faded Jeans and ma Paul Smith's HighTop shoes tomorrow? Cool?

; Awards Night shopping

2010-01-23T22:54:00.000+08:00

hey hey. damn tired today man. when shopping with Chal & Jenell. Chal's sister is damn pretty man. Seriously :D

Was walking to meet Jen at Starbucks CityLink, then got this girl ran towards me. Gave me a card, modelling company, blahblahblah, looking for freelance model, asked for my height, age and also number. 3rd time. different company. i should give it a try eh, but sian. school so busy, how to go sia.

Bought awards night dress already, and heels from Charles And Keith. Happy. But the heels is like damn high, and i look damn tall.

I sing the body electric, here i come. :D

Next week awards night, insya allah i'll post the pictures kay people.

Bye. Ngantok buah lychee ah. Besok must go my uncle's house, got kenduri. then straight go school. Maybe meeting jenell first lor. To buy her strapless braaa. Haha.

; Macam at last gitu kn, i dapat klua.

2010-01-16T22:48:00.000+08:00

So, after going percc for some SSC stuffs, went out with my Shabiboiiiiiiiiiii. Omg, i love her. Shes the only one who can make me laugh like hell and feel so comfortable, whenever i go out. :D

So, let me tell you how the day went. HAHA.

First, went to Jurong East to meet two of my blogshop customers. (Got $55 eh. Hehe) Then after that, we're hungry. And thought of eating at Dhoby Ghaut since after that we're heading to Clarke Quay la kan. So we took red line.. And then, when we're sitting and talking, we happen to be at Bukit Batok. And so, i did mentioned that the West Mall looked so old and ugly -.-

And then Sha was like, 'Are you thinking what im thinking?'
And then i was like, 'No. What are you thinking?'
HAHAHAHA.
and then sha said, 'LETS EAT HERE.'
hahahh.

And so, the both of us rushed out of the train just right before 'doors closing'. :D
Then we stepped into the West Mall, the inside okay ah. Got M]phosis all. But still, nothing interested to shop there -.- The place is just like Whitesands, but Whitesands is like so much better, i think. HAHA. anyway, of all places, we ate at Burger King. i swear, BK kat sane was like super empty. It was huge, but empty.

Sha : Mira, you wanna buy first and let me sit?
Mira : For what? Just buy together la. No one is gonna take our place anyway, sha. its freaggiinnnnnnnnn empty la.
Sha : Hahaha. Ya, true ah.

The both of us didnt manage to finish our lunch, tho. HAHAH. Sha bought the meal (which of course includes the fries!) While i just bought the burger. And then sha told me that she had wasted her money for buying so because she didnt finished it.

And then i simply answer her, "HAHAHA. i didnt, sha. im helping you eating yours. *smiles* "

Good one ah mira. hahahahaha. okay. next stop, the train.

So we were on the train, and i was just giving her some riddles. HAHAH. okay fake. okay, so we talked about how training went while i wasnt around, the hot topic in school, latest gossips which the both of us already knew, but we just talked about it again, and also. many things la. the trip from Bukit Batok to Dhoby Ghaut long sey and my legs were like frigginggggggggggggg tireeeeeed. Okay, then came this two Ah Lian, with Anime slash Goth costume. Omg. So i decided to give Sha dares, which of course i know was so insane and she wouldnt dare to do and i myself wouldnt. HAHA. OKAY CHUBI. okay, so..

Mira : Sha, i dare you to go to those two girls, and say "Omg. You should have known right? This is freaking singapore la puh-leeeeeeeeseeeeeeee. Your 'costume' *with hand gestures* are only allowed in Japan. This aint Anime or what girl, LEARN." HAHAHAH.
Sha : Siak ah mira. hahahaha. no i wont la! hahaha. *laughs*
Mira : *looks at her sequins high cuts which is so damn OBVIOUS, from Rubi* Wait, not finished yet. and, also go and say, "And, your shoes are like freaking $39.90. HAHA. take that ah."
Sha : *laughs the way she laughs, with her hand covering her mouth* hahahah. stop critisizing people la mira, omg. hahahah.

Anyway, i also asked her to talk with the Bitchy-step-British sleng kinda thing. HAHAHA. which is simply bitchy and plain irritating. i swear.

Okay. then back to the train trip.

Skali HerBoyfriend message.. Guess who? Jeffry Adam Lightfoot la. HAHAHA. He told us he dah sampai. Ah, amek kau. tunggu ah lame lame. Who asked you to come damn early, before timing? HHAHAHA.

Eh shit, i malas ah nk finish kan. next time eh? Nk blogshop :D Besok going haji lane. Yeah babehh, Nk gi 'Best of Blogshops'. :D And i baru je panaskan Nasi Briyani Ayam. sedap sedap sedap. Bye/

PRIVATE BLOG UPDATED EH RAKAN RAKAN.

I've got fever, Im hot. And it cant be stop.

2010-01-14T17:06:00.000+08:00

This week was rather short for me. Why? Pfft.

Checked in on Sunday night with Girlf and Bestf. Then got fever on Monday aftnn. Checked out on Monday nnight, with Achikmok. Then on Tuesday morning went to doctr, had 2 days MC. but on Wednesday night, temperature shot up to 40.4. Dangg. So, didnt go to school the next day. Went polyclinic, doctr took H1N1 sample test. If positive, he'll call. If not, he wont. I hope he doesnt *crossfingers* Doctr gave me 9 bottles of medicines. Its cause, I dont and cant eat tablet. I'll throw up. Tts why the doctr gave me baby's medicine, but higher quantity of course. Hahaha. And besides tt, doctr gave me 3 days MC. if i still have fever or Sat, i'll have to come down to polyclinic again to take bloodtest -.-

Im worried about checking in school next week. Cause you see, beenmissing quite alot of lesson this week already. Chemistry, Bio, Maths. I hope i can handle and catch up well with the help of 2 hours of SST! :D

Omg, i teringat pasal Freda. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Bestf, Girlf and DannyKenchee, i so have to tell you about this. hahahaha.

Been blogshopping for quite a while now, searching for awards night dress. Yeah. And hope on Saturday i could go out with Bestf and Girlf to Clarke Quay for the flea market, Haji Lane for some blogshops shop. And maybe bugis or something to check out heels :D

Till here, peace outs.

its 2010.

2010-01-10T12:39:00.000+08:00

okay, so only today i feel like blogging. hahaha. chubi eh, after so long. hahaha. okay, so basically, im back. jyeahhh.

its 2010. and i had a good and fresh start of 2010.

i swear, i hate 2009. its probably the worst year of my life, but still some of the days were memorable and unforgettable. but other than that, 2009 still suck. been losing all games/matches/tournament/competitions. didnt put in maximum effort. and because of that, i started to think about quitting and all those bullshits. but alhamdullilah, i had a good and fresh start of 2010, i hope that nothing can ever change my mindset.

talking about quitting, i would like to first thank Kak Dini and Abg Shakir for being such an inspiration to me. Well, during the event yesterday when all the Sea Games athletes had to speak up, your words as a experienced, motivated, example seniors, really inspired me deeply. it was a wake up call. I lost my passion when i started losing and losing throughout the whole year. BUT im glad that i've changed my mind. Afterall, its all Junior. i have not reached the Senior stage yet. Yes, i lost throughout 2009, but i know, in a way or another, my time will come soon.

Like what Abg Shakir said, 'I was his shadow 3 years in a row. Whenever there's competitions, trials, he will always get to go. Whenever we had selections I'll always lose to him. But because of my Passion, I waited. I know my time will come. And it did.'

yes, exactly.

This year insyaallah, i wont let that happen. Im starting to train my best. Alhamdullilah, kickings on paddings are slightly better. But i need more confidence to apply it in matches.

I just realised something. Somehow, Ive wasted my 2009 cause of getting to know the other gender. Whats the conclusion of it? Ive wasted my time, I got my heartbroken. Worth it? Hell no. This year, i hope nothing comes in my way of persuing my goals for this year. I wanna make sure that when i look back, 2010 was filled with good memories and also that feeling of satisfaction. Also, i hope that 2010 is the year when I really start a whole new chapter, and that for what Ive done for 2010, it will change the rest of my life.

Academic wise, Alhamdullilah, another good start. Have been catching up well in class lately for all subjects except for maths - as usual. New subjects turned out to be fun with Mr Chew - Biology, Mr Rodney - P.E and the usual, Mr Tan for Geography. So far so good, but Im more sleepy in class thisyear than last year and im not sure why. But, Mr Thomas did said, 'mira, i can see that youre working extra hard this year, huh. well done!' yeaaaaaaa. that cheered me up a lil bit :D

Rooming. Change roomie. Now with Shazira. Omg, i miss IMDV, i swear. bestf, will we be close again? I hope so *crossfingers*. So, my bunkmate is Shazira, And also stucked in the same room as Shaila an Suhaila. AWESOME. hahaha. now, im missing #04-47. Zamanzaman nabbs. hahahah. i miss you la nabbzxzxz. So far, no problems with roomies, Syukur.

Others. I can tell you only two things now. Im not in the mood to love. And. Im busy.
Maybe this is just a cocked up feeling that i had last time during His time. and then only when he leave me, i will tend to go back to him. Shit. Somehow, i miss you.

Mcm lilin with fire. Bila ade angin sikitkn the flame will jogetjoget. But. Do you let the fire just blow off, or work to keep on burning?

; today is okay

2009-11-22T03:05:00.000+08:00

so today, went out with Achikmok. She's so random. Ask me out pagi2 bute. -.-'

Went vivo, met Roomie and HerBoyfriend. Then supposedly, wanna watch Paranormal Activity. As usual, i have to get the tickets. -.-'' But tk lepas. At first i confident ah can lepas. HAHAH. cause she ah confirm the seatsa all. skali when nk bayar, she asked for my IC. wah, sedap. HAHAHAH. after that, didnt know where to go, so decided to go Marina. -.-' again. -.-''

But HerBoyfriend and Roomie didnt come along with us. Ye lah, want to spend quality time together la kan. ahahaha.

Then went Marina. Watched the most not worth it and lame movie ever, 'Mr Fantastic Fox'. i swear, that movie is one chubi sial. Tating.

GTG, dont feel like blogging now.

; Miraidora presents.

2009-11-18T15:07:00.000+08:00

; I sing the body electric

2009-11-18T14:11:00.000+08:00

BACK IN ROOOM. ;D

deans talk was scary but okay. Promoted to Sec 3E,Express class. Got the subjects I wanted. I DONT LIKE SOME OF MY FUTURE CLASSMATES MANZXZXZXZXZ.
so gonna post on my private blog in a while.

idk where IMDV fly off mans. she's not here in the room. -.-''
By the way, new pictures uploade on FB. check it outs yo. HAHA.

Oh yea. Yesterday night, i woke up and i couldnt sleep like from 4am-4.15am. And then i heard something knocking on my desk. And the sound of something else, like. Idk. But i swear. Its creepy. I pulled my blanket over myself and eventho i was sweating like hell, i just dont dare to not cover my ears and face. And then without realising, i was back asleep.

This evening, have to report to Auditorioum early, because of Choir practice again. Tonight is the night, eh. First item somemore. HUHU.

Wondering whats the special occasion tonight?
Tonight, school organised a function on "Singapore Sports School former Athletes/Students SEA Games send off". JiffyWhizKid will be there, i know. HAHA. Yep.

*sigh*

i want us to return back to normal - friends. But you didnt reply me yesterday. Dont you ever think that i've texted you cause i still love you. I just wanna clear things and start afresh. I get your point, and lets turn over a new leaf

Oh yeah, yesterday before meeting Saffron and Banana, went to Dining Hall to tapao food. HAHA. incredibly incredible sia. Packed damn alot of food and still instock today. Cause yesterday was not hungy because had special dinner, western food. So, before meeting HerBoyfriend and Adam at Fitness Corner, went to dining hall for Supper and got all the food we want; Brownies and Fries.

Mira is HUNGRYYY again -.-''

; We had the time of our lives.

2009-11-18T11:45:00.000+08:00

So. Yesterday night was pretty awesome!

Wait. before that, met Saffron and Banana. Talked to em with Nimble. Okay, banana was so hyper and i think she's gonna be the goody good good girl. She's from TKPS, i guess. shes nice, not bad! Saffron was just being herself and all. I find them friendly tho. After 1/2 hour talking, then started camwhoring using my lappy -.-' Pictures not with me now, im in comp lab,see. will upload later in room at 2pm ;D

After choir practice and assembly, met Adam and HerBoyfriend at Fitness corner.

HerBoyfriend, I LOVE YOUR SLIPPERS. Babi. change with me sudahh ehhh. HAHAHAHHAHA. eh, dont be jealous ah. Cemburu nk mamxzzxzx sia when IMDV's inbox got His name. He texted her first. Anyway, nothing going on also. So dont worry(: HAHAHA.

Adam, cheer up okay. Its not worth it lah, waiting and hoping for it.

Okay, so Nimble helped me to the Webcam software. Then at night Webcamed-Camwhored with IMDV. again, pictures not with me now. So will upload HERE soon (: Heeee.

Made video also. IMDV, be honoured okay. Made that specially for YOU okay. HAHAHA

After this have to go to AVA, to meet my cohort's dean. Todays the day where we get our Results for our choice of Subject combination next year. IM SCARED.

Will post up class post later. so humans of 2F, check it out, okay. ;D

GTG NOW. DEAN'S TALK. WISH ME LUCK HONEEEY

2009-11-17T15:55:00.000+08:00

Shoots. Keep thinking about it yesterday night. Im sorry IMDV, i couldnt talk much to you. Im sorry. But i know that you dont want me to feel hurt and fall down, just because of Him. I need to keep myself occupied. Guys? Nope. Clique first :)

Thanks Rainbow, Frinny and IMDV for being there for me(:

Cayenne, keep yourself avail this sunday okay. Remember.

Private blog updated (:

Planning a Girls Night Out outing with IMDV, Chantal and Kat. EXCITED GILE BABII.

2009-11-16T22:13:00.000+08:00

Most left; meet Kat.

Currently slacking in Room with Roomie. Decided to Ton tonight. HAHA. Idk if im gonna survive this, cause yesterday I only have like practically 2 hours of sleep. -.-

you know ida, you should stop starring here. its irritating and distracting. HAHA.

ok back.

This coming Sunday, InsyaAllah going out with Frin and Rainbow to celebrate Cayenne's Birthday. Hope that we all can make it.

Not going out this Saturday. Staying home.

Edit later. Bye.

2009-11-16T14:32:00.000+08:00

Everybody
needs inspiration
Everybody
needs a song
Beautiful
melody, when the night's so long

16th November 2009

2009-11-16T14:30:00.000+08:00

16^thNovember 2009

School was boring, nothing much. Only had first two periods of Mother Tounge, then the 2D people left for their Honour’s Paper – Science Major Module. Pity much, huh.

Thought that break is at Dining Hall, so went down. Saw the P6s (Sec 1 intake next year). And then saw Saffron, the girl which I guess by now all guys aiming for. Shes not bad, One hotstuff! But still, theres already people (girls) in school who hates her already. Pfft. Lets just see how she is next year,yeah. Haha.

Oh yea, surprised that non of my juniors is in the camp. Where are you people? Why never come sey. Hope to see you guys next year in school. Good luck for your PSLE results, anyway yeah.

After break time, head to Auditorium for Assembly. SUPER BORING. And then Cikgu was like talking about the school’s code of conduct and all and all, as usual. School rules gonna change and added. Like so -.-‘’ sia. Heard that we aint allowed to wear any other shoes, except for sports shoes. Mak, sports school with sports shoes. How sport-natic eh. -.-‘’

Just got back from lunch. Late cause had School’s choir practice for Wednesday night event, SEA Games Athletes send off.

Might be thinking, “WHAT? MIRA JOIN SCHOOL CHOIR?!”

Hahahaha. Tell me bout it ah. HAHA. Joined just for experience purposes. Tak pernah try choir mahh, skali skale not bad what. Honoured know, Singapore Sports School’s first ever Choir group:D

Roomie is on her bed now, baru bangun tido. Oh yea, yesterday i slept at 5.15am. An im sleepy now, but im just gonna wait for 2pm cause thats when i got the internet connection in boarding. -.-‘’ Come on Mieriikins. Endure. 20 more minutes till 2pm!

Oh yea. Wonder why I’d slept late yesterday? Read my private blog, kay?

Http://miraidora-sey.blogspot.com

get over you?

Dont worry, cause I’ll be fine. Im okay, Im cool. Im strong, it wont be that hard, right? :D BUT. Whenever youre ready, by all means. Im right here waiting for you dude. You need time, youve got all the time in the world. If it is, it is. If its not, that its not. Right? Im okay, Im fine. No worries.

2009-11-15T12:57:00.000+08:00

ONE MORE WEEK TILL FCUKING SCHOOL HOLS!

; Whats wrong? EVERYTHING

2009-11-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

Sha, read my private blog okay. Ily.

Private blog updated.

; whats wrong?

2009-11-10T11:12:00.000+08:00

private blog updated.

Twin, im on your side la b. Dont worry. Lets talk. Im sorry.

Frin, cheer up b. be happy. chill.

Roomie, i need you. Talk to you later in the room.

; BESTIE TOMORROW (:

2009-11-06T21:19:00.000+08:00

heyyaaaaaaaaaaaa.

FINALLY MATHS MAJOR MODULE IS LIKE FREAKIN OVER.
yeah babehhhh. now, its all about science (:

tommorow, event with Team @ Kallang, SSC. after that going out with Bestie, going town. study. off now. (:

;LiveJournal

2009-11-04T15:48:00.000+08:00

eh, i dont know how to use livejournal laaaa.

i guess, i wont update LJ. use blogger lagi best (:

PRIVATE BLOG UPDATED;

miraidora-sey.blogspot.com

LIVEJOURNAL

2009-11-02T14:06:00.000+08:00

I just created livejournal. HAHAHAH.

Cause was recommanded by Farah & Jenell.

Add me ah. hahahhaha.

http://miraidora-sey.livejournal.com

FARAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

2009-11-01T19:30:00.000+08:00

heyya. its 7.31pm, and im at FARAH'S house! hahaha

so, finally got to see that Sam's face. HAHAHAHAHA. okay lah, not bad. quite hot (;
later have to go back to Outram, to meet blogshopper. tating ah.

love, we dont need to watch crite Jennifer's Body already, cause Farah got the DVD. hahahahah. but still, watch Love Happens with me.

Oh my god. Love love love. I miss you! Pergi jemputan, then tk tau nk reply. hahahaa. basket you. text me soon, okay fat.

Love, i dah dpt read your dangerous posts. hahahahhaa. dont ask me how.

i miss you. reply me soon okay love.

Check in. Maths week.

2009-11-01T14:54:00.000+08:00

OMG. I NK! so nice );

Own design. Burok kn? otak blank now la):

Hello people. today so mendaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak.

Yesterday love called oiiiiiiiiii. Yeah babeehh. But, i swear, its the most boring conversation we ever had. Seriously. Hahahah. But who cares. Still get to otp with you after sooo longggggg :D

The rambot guy!

OBETAAAAAAN

Watched Man U's first half 'with' love. Yep. Daddy asked me to just look at the way Obertan play and all. Then love told me, He's the one that. okay. tk perlu. blahblahblah. -.-'' but then after watching after secondhalf, then so lazy to watch already. Like dah tk sanggup seys. Went back to room, packed stuffs for School TODAY.

SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL. annoying or what siol.

today; Love texted me early in the morning, then went to AMK hub to meet Blogshop customer, blahblahblah. Nothing much.

So, after MY school hols, planning two picnic already.

One; With team (actually, its not after school hols ah. Its the second last week of school nye Weekend, Sunday)

Two; with Lili, Frin, Shyan & Yadh.

Venue? I TK TAU.

);

Bodoh lah Bontot Master tk kasi at the beach. Belen belen sia.

I JUST CANT WAIT TILL SCHOOL HOLS.

bloody hell la, exams.

BABIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII.

Love,

Miraidora

love, bored, study

2009-10-31T15:54:00.000+08:00

i swear. today is such a boring day.

woke up, three new msgs. blogshop,blogshop, and more blogshop.

i realised that i've been shopping quite alot lately. really. (when im supposed to study for my papers, of course) but i guess i can only study No. 1; during SST. No. 2; After MidNight at home.

slept at 3AM yesterday, studying science. revising on module one again and again, till i understand what on earth im writting. (okay, i guess i aint making any sense now. im sleepy already!) and 2AM plus love called, but just for a few seconds. Was Facebook-ing and checking emails, so asked him to call in ten mins. But poor boy, he's sleepy.

But its awesome to finally hear his voice after weeks didnt otp with him, you know. i miss you la love.

texting you in Half an Hour time, okay.

so far, i wanna watch FOUR movies.

One; Love Happens.

Two; Jennifer's Body

Three; My Sister's Keeper

Four; Micheal Jackson - This Is It.
but i hope i'll have time for all. Yeah, exams now, and whatsmore school hols is like in three weeks time? Mainstreamers done already ):

tomorrow, doing meet ups for blogshop and all. excited, money and new stuffs coming in. KACHINGGG.

kayy ah. peace out.

i miss lili, frin, kak moon and cayenne

oh, oh. and my love - as always (:

i love you people.

Meet soon tau.

Miraidora.

Cayenne; my all time love.

2009-10-31T11:49:00.000+08:00

oh yeah.

yesterday met my love, Cayenne, and she told me stuffs. Yeah, surprising enough, though.

" There's something you should know about him "

Be strong baby boo. Things dont always go your way, and i know you know that.

Remember; He is not the only guy. There's someone else whose worth it. Be strong, and dont hold on just like what you told me to. Let it go, dear.

" Cause Cayenne, i know that you will get better in time. It will all get better in time. "

Remember; you wouldnt want to go back to the past. Memories; its all that matters.

Be happy because at least He was there during your best days and cheering you up when youre down - last time, showered you with His love and care. Dont get too sad about this and let it go. Just believe in; Its not meant to be. If it is, time will tell.

" Nadia, Cause youre gonna find someone someday whose gonna treat you well. "

But for now, let it go. Remember; Burn.
Never go back to the past. Never WAIT.

Time will tell. Time will tell..

; love happens

2009-10-30T17:49:00.000+08:00

exams is like what, next friday? Wth.
language papers, over. left with Maths and Science. Major Modules. alahai, belen belen siaa.

made so many plans after this two weeks know. to go out with alot of people. Alot.
Mainly with ; Crush, Lili & Frin, Sha & Hubby, and Cayenne.

cant wait for december, for Photoshoot (:
and then, Kachingg. $100 inside already dohhh.
OF COURSE, signing contract to continue freelance modeling(:
had promotion for Create Talents, maybe during dec hols then come down to look forward and all.

Also, december; two trips waiting for me!
One ; Penang trip, for cluster leaders and also student council. from 7th-10th December '09. (Adventure trip)
Two; KL, with family. CANT WAIT TO SHOP. from 14th-18th December '09.
hope tak clash with BodyShop Photoshoot! *crossfingers*

Crush; Please dont cut your hair. At least, until you klua with me? (:

..

2009-10-29T15:44:00.001+08:00

i nk watch this movie!
love, watch with me?

YES AH

2009-10-29T15:16:00.000+08:00

awesome. thats me! K2(;

i look so childish, i know. HAHAHHA.

back back. so long never blog, i know.
yeah, the past few days, is like. Okay lah. Nothing much.
but the thing is, i miss my looooooooooove.

To forget you;
before i met you, i wondered why all lyrics in love songs were so exaggerated : ' Why do lyricists create such mushy and overemotional sentences? Why cant they just write a good melody without those melodramtic lyrics? That is plain exageration.

Before i fell in love with you, I thought romance novels were just so silly: Why would a person cry for another person for hours? How could a person wait for his lover for years? That is plain silliness.

Before we baceme a couple, I thought romance movies were just so stupid: How could a person love another person so deeply that it became an obsession? How could one sacrifice so much, even to the extent of her own life, for her lover? That is plain stupidity.

When i realized I had fallen so deeply in love with you, I finally understood that songs, novels and movies are just reflections of life, inspired by the writer's true stories.

Because when i decided to end our relationship, I realized our story mirrors a love song that i once heard, a nove i once read and a movie we once watched.

2009-10-18T20:26:00.001+08:00

" You want someone who needs and loves you just as much and you need and
love
them. You want to believe your lover only has eyes for you. "

private blog updated

; All i gotta say

2009-10-18T19:17:00.000+08:00

I think Love is Blind. You dont see it, you dont hear what people are saying, or what you're saying. You dont see what youre doing. All you see is the person in front of you. Thats it.

I didnt listen to them. I think a girl has to go through that, because now Im the strongest Ive ever been. I dare soneone to change me again. Ive got so strong. It would never happen.

Exactly, i was Blinded with Your 'Love'.

its random for me to write this post about You, but yea. Out of the bluw, you jst re-appeared. Thank god youre gone. I just hope that the next time I bump into you or something, I'll be the happiest girl in the world with the Guy who appreciates me and never make use of me by my side. And there, you'll find yourself just so useless that you'll never and not able to keep one of your own. Why? I believe in Karma, cause what goes around, comes around.

But at the same time, i would like to thank you, for filling my empty heart, even if its just for a while. It still worth a while, and like i mentioned, Its the memories that matters. Not only that, but also.. For 'changing' me to someone stronger, and better. And after that of course, i dont need you at all.

All this time i was Wasting, Hoping that you would come around.
i've been giving out chances every time, and all you do is let me
down.

It's just wasnt that easy to get over you, but i told myself, whats there to still wait and fall for someone who've hurt me before? Youre not worth it, Nor sorry.

Bye, thats my final goodbye to you for now. I dont believe that we're meant to be.

" Kalau tkde jodoh, tk ke mane"

2009-10-17T18:44:00.000+08:00

Lame lame jokes yesterday, for hours.

You made me love you.

Jealousy, enough? (;

Who slept over the phone yesterday? ;D

Morning earthlings.

2009-10-10T03:30:00.000+08:00

First things first. That Mot.Fuc is really irritating me. Really.

Its THREETHIRTYSIXam, and im not asleep yet. AND. im facing the most crucial disaster - whats should i wear TOMORROW, for JalanRaya with teammates? Oh gosh!!

Today was okay. nothing much. nothing much.

grad night was sad, but didnt gave seniors anything - cause got no time to prepare for the stuffs and all.. and yes, they'd leave the school already.. some of them do leave good, and bad memories too, aye.

Besok jalan raye with lili and team. yay. excited. but so not excited to the shiftsD;

yeah. blogshop currently dead, unless someones willing to buy or something.

oh gosh. i wish Y. was still awake to teman me D:

please text me tomorrow. i tunggu.

;its never the right time to say goodbye..

2009-10-07T15:09:00.000+08:00

yeah. today was neutral, rather normal.

yesterday night, SST was awesome. talked to MinahSunTan/ShailaSpade and sat with her for the first 45minutes. And then sat with Bestie;Achan and Asyrap. WAS DAMN KEKEK.

now that i know Asyrap true colours, i feel more comfortable with him - in terms of telling him stuffs and all, not whatt -.-'' secrets were shared also, but its only kite2 ;D talked about some other cock-ed up stuffs also, which is probably sick and you wont want to know. ALSO, got to know what they love to do, as always. HAHAHAHAHA.

asyrap, how you say it? 'PUKOL LAPAN KOSONG DUAAAAA .... .... '
you guys rock la, i love you classmates;D

history was suck-ish. i never like history man, taking geog next year. almost fell asleep in class! Source based, suck balls.

Word of the day; LANCHAP.
dont ask me what it stands for, ask the Minah. Lols.

so today, have cross training, like what only. damn lazy sia. playing floorball.

TOMORROW IS THE DAY; graduation night.
gonna miss ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT OF PEOPLE balls.
and yay, talked to Him tadi. happy know. finallyyyy. was thinking if i could take the last pic with him besok. but shy to ask, eh. Anyway, i'll pass your stuffs the next time when im gonna see you ah. shitt la, left it at home. sorry eh;D
huhu. gonna cry tomorrow, i bet. will upload the pic sooon after the event;D

im gonna miss you people. but to You, good luck. if its meant to be, it is. seems like its not, ehh? take care. i wont say i hate you, i dont love you, im not gonna miss you and.. Not goodbye.. This applies to You also, dont say goodbye..

dont say goodbye..

PHOBIA 2

2009-10-04T12:35:00.000+08:00

watching Phobia 2 - Rated NC16

@ The Cathay with loveables - minus satu pompan.

Roomie, Adri, Min, Adam & Jen.

huhu. excited. off now. toodles.

loveeeeeeee it ;D

2009-10-04T11:06:00.000+08:00

Youtube Rocks. ;D

2009-10-04T09:27:00.000+08:00

i just checked this out, Kanye West disses Taylor Swift on VideoMusicAwards '09. Taylor was shocked when Kanye came up and announced that Beyonce deserves her spot. Asshole.

Gifted! Watch how amazing her voice is. So what she's fat? ;D

Justin Bieber - One time Acoustic Version

If my boyfriend sing this to me, with the exact same voice.. HUHU!
Justin Bieber - Because of you Acapella.

Justin Bieber - I'll wait for you Acapella.

Justin Bieber - Do you Acapella.

Justin Bieber & Kristinia DeBarge - Unfaithful

never been better;

2009-10-03T21:34:00.000+08:00

huhu. loving today(; when shopping with Mother. shopped at City Hall - Body Shop, and then to Rubi shoes, and then to Robinsons.

believe it or not, Mother and i just spend $100++ just on body shop. heee. so, i bought a new cleanser, shower gel and also face lotion or something. and.. three pairs of shoes? hahahha.

took cab back home. Mother is so in the good mood today((:

time flies. and this coming friday is Graduation Night already. shit.

the first person i'll miss is, definitely my Badiambo. people call her cayenne and all, but i'd prefer Badiambo - why, because I've created that name just for her and also, she's also a Bimbo((: I swear im gonna miss her truck loads. I know, its kinda dumb. But. After this coming friday, the only person i'll turn to to tell my secrets,thoughts and problems would be KakiRingan's (other than ShailaSpade && BabyLalala). I mean, in school, practically, not that Badimbo's gone forever, right? Only the fact that she wont be in school and all): Eventhough we fought alot within two years here, but still. We're back close, better than ever(: ily, bodohhhh.

and shafiqi too. and hamka too. and iqbal too. and nurin too. and pona too. and... You too.. no more twentysevenn memories, no more 14th Jan memories, no more, no more...

but still, aint it good. the faster You go and leave, the faster i move on((:

its better if we dont speak at all;

2009-09-30T14:43:00.000+08:00

PRIVATE BLOG UPDATED;
http://miraidora-sey.blogspot.com

mieriikins is backk

2009-09-29T16:18:00.000+08:00

heyyaaaaaaaa. MIERIIKINS is sooo back.

so long didnt post, so busy with blogshops and all :S
heeeeeeeee.

so lazy to blog);

toddles. anything beep. and yeah. do go to my blogshop. updated(;

hari raya.

2009-09-17T19:23:00.000+08:00

Look at Jonathan with my hoodie. How gay. hahaha.

heyya. here we go again(:

anyway, sorry for not updating. actually, theres nothing to post. hahahha. here some pictures, on the whole week. and yay - mama got me a new cameraaaaaa(;

do go to my blogshop, new stuffs avail. nice nice. http://miraidora-jugak.blogspot.com

selling MANGO BROWN SKINNIES; fits size 26-27.

Size 3.

Good good condition((:
Bought at a very high high high price.

$26

(only one pair to sell; second hand)

Black Bandage Skirt.

$22.

GET IT WHILE STOCKS LAST.
(instocks, in packaging, brand new)

Black glossy lame leggings

glossy material.

can choose either with or without zipper(:

$20.

GET IT WHILE STOCKS LAST
(instocks, in packaging, brand new)

Girlfriends; eternity.

2009-09-05T21:59:00.001+08:00

after reading Cayenne's blog, I just remembered how much Im not there for her these days. really.

Cayenne, Shaila Spade & BabyLala : BABY BOO. you okay? i know, i weren't there for you when youre sad and all and all, and im sorry. i just wish that we could rewind back time, where we had all our fun together and sisterhood and whatsoever with the other two. ily girlfriends so much. i know i hadnt play my part, & im sorry.

i know, when you girls read this, you'll be like, 'asal ngn mira?'

yes yes, its just that.. i dont know.. things within us is okay, but its not normal.. we dont really share secrets together no more, share thoughts, share love, share problems, everything..

just to let you know, for whatever happens, I'll still love you forever, my loves.

Nadia, Suhaila and Liana.